Recently, I received a letter from David Freeman, a Boston-based financial services professional. In the letter, he said, “I found Reflections on the Existence of God to be the most complete, convincing, and well-constructed work of Christian Apologetics I have ever read . . . and I have read many. Your book has the power to change lives and I am sure it will change hundreds, maybe thousands in the years ahead.” If you have not read Reflections on the Existence of God, below you will find one of the 64 short essays found in the book.


Modern people seem to struggle with the issue of pain and suffering more than anyone else in history. Here in the Western world, we live in such prosperity yet struggle so much more with affliction than people in other parts of the world. Author Philip Yancey says:

“Books on the problem of pain divide neatly into two group­ings. The older ones, by people like Aquinas, Bunyan, Donne, Luther, Calvin, and Augustine, ungrudgingly accept pain and suffering as God’s usual agents. These authors do not ques­tion God’s actions. They merely try to ‘justify the ways of God to man.’ The authors wrote with confidence as if the sheer force of their reasoning could calm emotional responses to suffering.

Modern books on pain make a sharp contrast. Their authors assume that the amount of evil and suffering in the world cannot be matched with the traditional view of a good and loving God. God is thus bumped from a ‘friend of the court’ position to the box reserved for the defendant. ‘How can you possible justify yourself, God?’ these angry moderns seem to say. Many of them adjust their notion of God, either by redefining His love or by questioning His power to control evil.

When you read the two categories of books side by side, the change in tone is quite striking. It’s as if we in modern times think we have a corner on the suffering market. Do we forget that Luther and Calvin lived in a world without ether and penicillin, when life expectancy averaged thirty years, and that Bunyan and Donne wrote their greatest works, re­spectively, in a jail and a plague quarantine room? Ironically, the modern authors—who live in princely comfort, toil in cli­mate-controlled offices, and hoard elixirs in their medicine cabinets—are the ones smoldering with rage.”

Author Tim Keller encounters many religious skeptics in Man­hattan where he works, and so many of them are skeptics be­cause of the pain and suffering they see in life. How could a good God, a just God, a loving God allow such misery, pain, and anguish to exist?

However, Keller points out on the flip side that he has seen many people find God and transformation in the midst of pain and suffering. Adversity moves them toward God instead of away from Him. He says troubled times awakens people out of the belief that they are sufficient without God. This often leads people into a serious search of the divine.

C.S. Lewis seemed to have a good grasp on this. In his book The Problem of Painhe says:

“Pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasure…but shouts in our pain; it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”

He goes on to say:

“No doubt pain as God’s megaphone is a terrible instrument; it may lead to final unrepented rebellion. But it gives the only opportunity the bad man can have for amendment. It removes the veil; it plants the flag of truth within the fortress of a rebel soul.”

Dinesh D’Souza speaks of Bart Ehrman, an author, scrip­ture scholar, and former Christian who abandoned his faith be­cause of unspeakable suffering he saw out in the world. He said, “I could no longer reconcile the claims of faith with the facts of life.” What is interesting is that Ehrman acknowledges that he personally has never experienced any real suffering in his own life. What troubles him most is the suffering of people in Asia, Africa, and South America. Yet, ironically this is where Christianity is flourishing in the places where the suffering is the greatest.

Historian Philip Jenkins says that in third world countries, suffering turns people toward God. He says,

“Christianity is flourishing wonderfully among the poor and persecuted, while it atrophies among the rich and secure.”

I love the story that Andrea Dilley tells about her life. She was raised by medical missionaries in Kenya and was exposed to a great deal of suffering and death. As a teenager, she began to question her faith and the goodness of God. When she got into her 20s she completely rejected God and Jesus. What drove her away was her anger at God over the suffering and injustice in the world.

She shares how one evening she got into a philosophical dis­cussion with a young man who, like her, did not believe in God, but also did not believe in an absolute moral law. She found herself in a real argument with him, saying, “If morality is sub­jective, you cannot say Hitler was wrong. You can’t condemn evil.” It then powerfully struck her that she was arguing with him from a theistic perspective. She said:

“When people ask me, what drove me out the doors of the church and then what brought me back, my answer to both questions is the same. I left the church in part because I was mad at God about human suffering and injustice. And I came back to church because of that same struggle. I realized that I couldn’t even talk about justice without standing inside of a theistic framework. In a naturalistic worldview, a parentless orphan in the slums of Nairobi can only be explained in terms of survival of the fittest. We’re all just animals slumming it in a godless world, fighting for space and resources. The idea of justice doesn’t really mean anything. To talk about justice, you have to talk about objective morality, and to talk about objective morality, you have to talk about God.”

She logically concluded that without God and an absolute moral law, justice is a meaningless word.

What I like about Andrea Dilley is her integrity. She re­jected a belief in God because of the pain and suffering that she saw out in the world. She did not realize how her new belief in atheism contradicted her everyday life experience. Her belief in the value of human life and justice came very natural to her. She recognized it to be true. She did not see the contradiction in her life until she got into a discussion with a young man who did not live with that same contradiction. He was an atheist and recognized in his worldview, morality is subjective and therefore you cannot say Hitler’s actions were evil.

To Dilley’s credit, she recognized this massive contradiction and was not willing to live with it. She knew in her heart that human beings are of great value and need to be treated with dignity and respect. So she changed her mind and embraced the Christian worldview because it is consistent with the real world in which she lives.

Richard E. Simmons III is the founding director of The Center for Executive Leadership, a faith-based ministry in Birmingham, Alabama focused on counseling businessmen and professionals. His column appears every weekend in 1819 News. Richard is the best-selling author of The True Measure of a Man, Reliable Truth, and The Power of a Humble Life. His newest book, an Amazon best-seller, is Reflections on the Existence of God – a series of short essays seeking to answer life’s most enduring question: Does God exist? You can find Richard's weekly blog, podcast, and more at The views and opinions expressed here are those of the author and do not necessarily reflect the policy or position of 1819 News. To comment, please send an email with your name and contact information to

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